I don't understand why everybody can be such a good friend. With all those attentions, caring-things, loving-things, and all of the I'm-your-bestfriend-gestures. And I? I'm just being this careless, insensitive friend. So why is that? I never be able to show my feelings, to show how much I care.
I personally think that I am sensitive enough, but the problem is that I always act carelessly, pretend that I don't see anything's coming. But, the truth is that I often see it! I'm just too idiot to let you know that I'm knowing something. But trust me, I do care. I always try my best to help you, to put you out of troubles, but perhaps what you always see is a heartless-zombie is doing some efforts to help you. Sometimes the zombie is succesfull, but again, everyting that the zombie has done is plain, flat, emotionless. The zombie fails to bring some emotion. Oh, please, I really want you to know that the zombie does involve her feeling (and again, that zombie is stupid, cause she doesn't know how to show it off)!
I feel sorry for myself, and I apologize to all of my close friends for being me. I'm not good at being a good friend. Pathetic, it is. Yes. I really cannot say it that I care of you and I love you all. No way, I can't say it, but I can write it down. I write it down for you.
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